Uncertainty

I wrote to Sen. Betsy Johnson today regarding the environment. As part of the environmental awareness week at PCC. I wrote to her mostly about expanding public transport and how that could help our environment, with attention to moving the reach of the Trimet out to Columbia County. It's one of those things I've been meaning to do for a while now, but have never gotten around to. I got a magnet with the earth from space. I think I'll give it to Cheri, she can add it to her collection, and if I am able to move in with her I'll see it then.^_^

I feel so uncertain about the future.

Am I able to take full time credit loads ten-twelve credits like I am now, and do well?

What will happen if I am hired for the library job? Can I do both school + job?

Will slowing down on my credit hours in order to work cause my two year degree to take longer than the four years it will already take?

When will I be able to see my family/ Jason if I work on weekends?

How will my mum and dad /Jason react to me moving out?
 

How will mum and dad react to me getting a job that requires I move out?

Am I trying to get this job for the money and independence, or for the sake of my relationship? Maybe both?

Was choosing to do a Bacholars of Science over a Bacholars of Arts a mistake?
 

Can I handle these science courses?

Will my struggle with math prevent me from getting my degree?

 

All these question that I'm struggling to answer are leaving me only with a deep longing for some stability. I want to feel like I'm swimming in my depth. I find myself wondering if all this uncertainty is part of life as usual, or part of a college students life? I'm so tired all I want to do is sleep and sleep.