Doing Geeky Stuff

[medievallass]

 I walked around down town Portland today while dad was at PSU. I really needed the distraction of getting out of the house. Since I went alone I  had sometime alone with my thoughts. However, having a different setting and wandering around kept me from dwelling on any sad or nervous thoughts. I had a yummy lunch of terrikaki beef and rice at the Happy Bowl. They give you lots of food for not much money at all ^_^. I was able to get a couple new tops from Old Navy when Sheri and I went to Loydd Center. I was pleasantly surprised by how cheap they were, five dollars each! It was really nice to see Sheri again it had been a really long time.

I'm going to start school for the fall term soon. This term I'm taking US History 2 and a Film Studies course, which goes towards English credits. I would have started with US History but I couldn't get to my bus to arrive at any of the times it was avalible.  That's okay though, hopefully I'll be able to take it next term. I don't mind doing things back forwards I did the same thing with Anthropology, and it didn't cause any problems. I wanted to take the introductory English course, but it had been cancled, which is a shame. I also tried to get into English Comp 122, but because I was naughty and registered late, I didn't get in. I'm still determined to up my hours at school, so hopeful next term I'll be able to take nine hours. Then maybe the term after that I can take four classes. I'm looking forward to starting the fall term. I really enjoy school and PCC is very nice. Also it's nice to have a consistant schedual, and to be assured that I'm working towards my future.

At the same time I still have the same old anxiousness about school, after the whole PSU experience. I've been doing much better since then, but each term I have the shadow of fear that somehow I'll slip back to that awful place. I just haven't been sure of myself since senior year of high school. I wish I could have back the days when I felt confident in my abilities. I worry so much these days about whether I can have a job and go to school at the same time, or whether I'm cut out for this world at all. I've always been able to see the bigger picture. Now that I'm an adult I can't deny that I'm finding it a rather overwhelming picture. I just want to feel certain, for the first time in quite sometime. Oh dear, I didn't mean to have a rant or worry fest! I guess it's good to get it out though. I'm so happy I have Live Journal. I think I can express my thoughts much better by writing them out. If I try to tell them to someone I don't feel like I'm expressing it right.

I must remember to think positive, I can do it! I'm not incompetent, I've got a handle on it. I am so going to ace this term yay! Lots of love to everyone.     

Comments

[singswithtrees.livejournal.com]

It's good to get it out and into writing--I know how that feels. Being in school, or trying to work out some combination of school and work, can be both tiresome and trying. But best of luck, Hayley! We're here cheering you on, and I'm sure that you'll do fine. See you on Saturday! :)

[medievallass.livejournal.com]

Thanks Molly you're the best *big hug*. It diffinately makes me feel good to know I'm being cheered on, I can't thank you guy enough for the support. Also I'm sorry it's taken me a little while to give you a call back. I'll give you a ring for sure tonight though after five when you are off work. Take care my friend and thanks again.

Love,

Hayley ^_^