Please Come Quickly Summer
Apr. 29th, 2004 07:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
medievallassOnce again it feels like I haven't written an entry for a long time, oh dear. School has kept me very busy again, and it's really starting to bring my spirits down. I am missing a few important assignments in, out of all subjects, History! I feel terrible about it, but there is so little time to get things done this year. I am really loathing junior year! It's so much rushing around! Don't the teachers care about work that takes some meditation over anymore? Something that shows a lot of effort and time put into it? I try to do that with all my work, but it's so hard when it is just one assignment after another. On days like this I really wonder if I am cut out for college. I really want to be as educated as I can because I do love to learn, but if a stupid year in high school stresses me out, can I really do a possible six years in college? That is if I can scrape up the money (doubtful on that)or lots of scholarships.
I was really excited about going to college at one time, but now all I've been hearing about it is negitive sort of things. Now I am just nervous about it and even dreading it. I don't know...
Another bummer is I was hoping to finish my green over tunic to go with my linen tunic I made and wear them to the Beltane Ithra this weekend, but I haven't even started sewing. Unless I manage to get it ready to be sewn together by friday evening, knowing the pace that I work I doubt I will be able to do that. I'm still going to work my butt off and see if I can manage it though, here's hoping!
My poor little sister Georgie isn't feeling well either. She has Strep Throat and it seems to really hurt. I have heard it's really bad. I hope no else in the family gets it. Man I don't have time to be sick either lol!
Rick (my ex-boyfriend) has been on my mind too, lately. I don't know why that is, but it is. I don't regret breaking up with him. It just needed to be done, things just weren't working, so I need not waste his time. Breaking up with him was one of the hardest things I have ever done (not because it was a really strong relationship, or a long one) it was difficult because I am a very passive person I don't really stand up to people often.He was mad about breaking up. As I said I don't regret breaking up with him, I had to, I just feel sad that things didn't work out. As far as dating and all that goes right now.I Feel kind of hopeless (hopeless feels kind of dramatic) but it's the best adjective I guess. I'm just going to let it be. I have lots of time.
Well I had better get working on my school work especially the health project, and history stuff if I have time. I abhore time, I don't have enough of it!
I was really excited about going to college at one time, but now all I've been hearing about it is negitive sort of things. Now I am just nervous about it and even dreading it. I don't know...
Another bummer is I was hoping to finish my green over tunic to go with my linen tunic I made and wear them to the Beltane Ithra this weekend, but I haven't even started sewing. Unless I manage to get it ready to be sewn together by friday evening, knowing the pace that I work I doubt I will be able to do that. I'm still going to work my butt off and see if I can manage it though, here's hoping!
My poor little sister Georgie isn't feeling well either. She has Strep Throat and it seems to really hurt. I have heard it's really bad. I hope no else in the family gets it. Man I don't have time to be sick either lol!
Rick (my ex-boyfriend) has been on my mind too, lately. I don't know why that is, but it is. I don't regret breaking up with him. It just needed to be done, things just weren't working, so I need not waste his time. Breaking up with him was one of the hardest things I have ever done (not because it was a really strong relationship, or a long one) it was difficult because I am a very passive person I don't really stand up to people often.He was mad about breaking up. As I said I don't regret breaking up with him, I had to, I just feel sad that things didn't work out. As far as dating and all that goes right now.I Feel kind of hopeless (hopeless feels kind of dramatic) but it's the best adjective I guess. I'm just going to let it be. I have lots of time.
Well I had better get working on my school work especially the health project, and history stuff if I have time. I abhore time, I don't have enough of it!
